Friday, June 8, 2012
Forget how much it hurts and try again...
Yesterday was the start of our last fresh IVF. I had bloodwork drawn, a
baseline u/s and everything looks good to go. It took us a long time to
get to this point. I am still unsure of where we are and what we are
truly doing. My heart is torn, one missing Sophia, the other feeling bad
for trying to replace what we miss so very much.
My medical team... yes, I have a team, are very much behind us in every
way. They are ultra protective and only want to see us come home with a
bundle of joy. I have a wonderful community of ladies who are rooting
for us in every way, and our families are on high alert, hoping and
wishing us all the best.
So it is... Game on!
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Guarded
It is Day 3 of Stims. My RE is stimming me hard this time, knowing I
will not be doing another fresh cycle and I find myself truly guarded
during this cycle. I am not allowing myself to feel much about anything.
I don't think I can.
Yesterday, I was talking to Tyler and I decided that I was truly more
scared of this working than if it didn't. I know in my heart of hearts
that if this doesn't pan out, we will be ok. We are a fantastic couple.
We love to spend time together and be together. A baby, or lack
thereof, is not going to change that. Now, on the other hand, if it
does work.....
Friday, I have an appointment with my MFM to go over a game plan as to
if this work. I need to know what they are going to do to keep me safe
and our bab(y/ies) safe. Truly, I am scared shitless of the same
scenario playing out. I need to know that I am going to be taken care
of. *sigh* The fun is almost starting :)
Monday, July 9, 2012
Stim Check #1
This morning I had my first progress check to see how my follicle counts
are going. This will be day 7 of stims. So far we know that the right
side has about 10 follies and the left has 5 that are measurable. I am
happy with this. Estradiol seems to be at about 1200. Nurse seems happy
with things and I should hear back this afternoon so see what the plan
is.
My MFM appointment went well on Friday, as well. She gave me some
options that I am mulling over for plan of care, if I should become
pregnant. Also, she was willing to listen and try to understand where I
was coming from, which meant the most. I feel so much better after that
appointment. The bad thing is, she is leaving my Clinic after
mid-August. So we will see how that affects things. Right now there is
about a 30-70% chance of recurrence, which I am not too hip on, but we
know so much more this time than we did before. That lovely hindsight
should help.
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Stim Check #2
Friday, July 13, 2012
Stim Check #3
Friday, July 13, 2012
Happy Hour Trigger
Got the call this afternoon that we would be doing a 6:30pm trigger. We
had plans to go to our local Happy Hour before heading out of town,
which means we would be adding to our list of funny places to do shots.
The time comes and I have DH follow me into the women's bathroom with my
makeshift cooler in my purse. We are getting ready to inject and the
door handle starts to jiggle. We die laughing. DH even starts making
noises, which was killing me. We finish up and I open the door. Funny
thing is, we know the girl on the other side. I say Hi and move on.
After I move, I hear "ohh!" when DH is framed in the door. :) Ha! Oh
well, we were making a baby :)
Retrieval is Sunday morning!
Sunday, July 15, 2012
Sunday Calling
5:45am came very early, especially when it was truly 4:45am my time and
our hotel was craptastic with lots of noise through 1am. After we left
the hotel, things... well, things kept going :)
We got settled in to the new location and immediately missed the old IVF
lab. The newbies at this lab didn't know what they were missing. We got
paperwork filled out and I got brought back to my room. My IV didn't go
too hot, which had been the topic of the week. The first IV site lead
to my hand filling with liquid and looking like an alien was trying to
burst out. The second IV site gave nothing and then another lady was
brought in who finally got my arm all set up.
I set about to cracking my jokes. (it's the only way I can get through
all this) and gave my RE a hard time for having flip flops on and
running late. (His daughter ran his gas tank down the night before) Got
brought back to the ER room and placed an order for a cheeseburger and
fries with the embryologist through the lab window.... and I was out :)
Woke up to 13 eggs being retrieved. He couldn't reach them all, so I am
not sure how many were missed. We are happy with 13 though. Seems like a
lucky number. :)
I have been sick all day with nausea and dizziness so I have stopped my pain meds. Hoping this helps!
Monday, July 16, 2012
Fert Report
Got the word today that all 13 eggs were mature and 10 fertilized! This
is wonderful news. Somehow the double-digits just put your mind at ease.
Transfer is going to be Wednesday night.... yes, night. My RE is
actually here in town on Wednesday and not 2 hours away from us at his
lab, so we will transfer when he gets back for the day. Crazy times! It
does mean we get to go over early for Cheesecake Factory! :)
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Night Moves
Transfer happened after 9pm est last night. Weird timing, but that is
what happens when your RE is shared between his own clinic and 2 others.
He is a popular man. We transferred beautiful embies and had a pretty
easy time of it. I even won the award for Fullest Bladder... an award I
do not recommend aspiring to receive.
We also found out that all but one of our embies were still growing very well. We are really happy with the results.
Now we will see what this brings us... fingers and toes crossed!
Saturday, July 21, 2012
If 3 doesn't do it, maybe 4 will....
Got the call this morning that we had 4 very nice blastocysts make it to
freeze. The embryologist said they looked very nice. Sometimes, it is
nice to know that there could be a plan B if needed.... even though we
all know how our frozen cycles go. But 4, 4 I will take.
Friday, August 3, 2012
I have been keeping a secret...
If you know me outside of my blog,
please don't let this out. We are being very quiet about this until we
can figure out how to handle being pregnant again. Thanks :)
It appears as though IVF #7 has worked. I am pregnant. :) The last
couple of weeks have been pretty rough. It started after our ER. I got
bloated pretty bad, but by about our ET, I was feeling better and by the
weekend, things were back to normal. Monday morning, I woke up and was
feeling back to bloated and I was really queasy. Curious.... Tuesday it
was worse.... and this was while I was in training at School. Wednesday
I started having a hard time breathing because of the bloat, and by
Thursday, I had fullblown OHSS. In fact, I was feeling so bloated, I
knew at that point that if I took a test it would come up
positive....and it did. 3weeks4days and I knew :)
Thursday also meant that I called my RE to talk about OHSS. The pain was
incredible. My stomach was so tight and I was just miserable. They got
me all set up for testing Friday morning, which was to be my Beta Day. I
ended up sleeping in the recliner and made it through the night, but
not without thinking I might end up in the Emergency Room.
Friday morning, I set out for the Clinic. At 11, I had my blood drawn
and by noon I had had an u/s to check fluid levels and another blood
draw. They had me set up in a recliner in the office. I was going to
have to be drained.... Off to the hospital I went.
7 hours after heading out for a quick blood draw, I got back home. I had
2 IV bags of fluid. I had 850ml drained from my stomach and I felt so
much better. Tyler came with me and I think I about squeezed his hand
off during the procedure. We also found out that our beta came back at
134 at 9dp3dt, which is a very strong number.
We have since had 3 more betas and all is looking very good. We go in
for our ultrasound on the 15th. Until then.... one day at a time.
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